In previous years, I would always remember Xiao Han's death anniversary. It was just before April Fools' Day. This year, perhaps intentionally, I avoided the word "death". Witnessing the person I loved die right in front of me is a cruel thing. I finally understand now how much pain Xiao Han's parents and family must have felt. I didn't attend Xiao Han's final journey, maybe because I couldn't imagine what death would look like at that time. It felt distant from me. I'm not used to blogging anymore, especially after starting work. Every day feels like a repetition of the previous day. Seeing my blog from two years ago, I couldn't help but come here and write something random. Oh, by the way, I'm going back at the end of the month. Hopefully, there will be some changes.
Written after April Fools' Day
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The author reflects on the aftermath of April Fool's Day and how they have deliberately avoided thinking about death. They mention the pain of witnessing a loved one's death and express understanding of the pain experienced by the family. The author admits to not attending the funeral because they couldn't imagine death at that time. They mention not being used to blogging anymore and express a desire for change as they plan to return home at the end of the month.